Do not fear

I love to write, but I fear discipline. Or rather, I fear that I am not the kind of person who has enough discipline to finish something once I begin. I regularly fall in love with the beginnings of things, but I have a difficult time sticking it out when the beginning becomes the middle.

I want to write in a way that moves people. Challenges them. Encourages them. Breathes life into their souls and brings strength to their hearts. I want to write in a way that makes people feel less alone, but I am more in love with the finished product than I am with the work that gets me there.

HELP.

- Lauren

Dear self,

Fear is normal. It is natural. But you are not called to a normal, natural existence. No, you are called by the Creator of the universe to dwell in His presence, live by His power, and walk in His ways. You are called to be His, and He is with you. Your surest path to overcome fear is to cling to the person of Jesus.

God commands us again and again, “Do not fear, for I AM WITH YOU.” You will not conquer through your abilities, your skills, your character, your power, or your will. Here’s a truth that will set you free today: Jesus does all of the conquering. He does all of the overcoming. He does all of the saving. Stick close to Him, listen to Him, and love Him, and He will do what only He can in and through you.

And in those moments when fear threatens to overwhelm you and you cannot find your way through it? Walk on. Step forward. Don’t wait for the fear to pass. Whatever God has called you to do? Do it in faith, even if you are afraid, and you will find that each new step becomes easier than the last.

The enemy uses fear to paralyze you, so when you are afraid, move in the last direction that God told you to go. He will meet you there.

I will write

It feels as though every time I sit down at the computer to write, I have the same conversation with myself.

What is the point? What if all of the words that need to be written have already been written? What if all of the words that matter have already been spoken? In a world where everyone is shouting their thoughts and opinions into the wind of the internet and social media, how could my voice possibly matter?

It’s the same doubt that has plagued every person who has dared to be brave enough to step up to a blank page and pour out their soul to fill it: If there is nothing new under the sun, then why create?

That thought is usually enough to silence me; to keep my fingers from tapping out my heart on the keys.

But not today.

Today, I am going to change the conversation, because if the words that I have are not important, then Satan would not be fighting so hard to keep me silent.

Here is the truth: God is the only original Creator. He created all things from nothing, and he did it a very, very long time ago. He created by himself, through himself, for himself, so that all things would one day see and reflect His glory.

So for me, the act of writing will not be an act of creation. It will be an act of imitation. It will be an act of worship. It will be an act of fellowship.

I will write because God made me in His image, and the nearer I grow to Him, the more like Him I become. So I will write because the words are in me, somewhere, and I will not be able to rest until they’ve worked their way out of me. I will write because writing helps me feel connected to my Creator. I will write because it is hard and because I can do difficult things. I will write because it scares me and because I refuse to be cowed by fear.

I will write because God is worthy, because He is with me, and because I long to see Him accomplish the kind of work in my life that can only be explained by His power and presence.